When it all comes to an end...

Wow..I can't believe the four years of high school already passed. That means I'm four years older than I was when I entered high school... a little older yet a little wiser xD Thinking back of all those times in high school, I wonder how much each of us changed and grow up in our own way. When you made great friends in high school, we all have to separate to move on to college. When I think of the word "college", I don't even want to think anything further. Somehow I just wish time would stop at this moment and let me reminisce with memories I've made in high school--whether good or bad. But too bad reality can be pretty harsh =[ What we can do is keep in touch with the friends as best as we could and try to maintain that bond--even if it's small--all the way to adulthood. Promises are hard to keep, but I hope from the bottom of my heart to keep all of my friends I've made in high school close to me. When we're all going different paths, I believe one day we will cross each others' paths one day :) Afterall, it's a small world. Writing all this down makes my heart sad at the very thought that goodbyes are very painful and how I can't bear to utter those words at all.


Enough of all these pessimistic thoughts. What I should be doing is spend all the time I have left with my friends to make memories together...before reality hits back harder than ever. Anyways ^.^ yesterday, I dragged Jia, Teresa, Anne and Jojo to the FHHS Jazz Concert. The concert was awesome, but short =[ I wanted to listen to more music and enjoy everything about it! I envy how the people on the stage can play music so fluently!  I wish I can have the ability to sight-read and play an instrument fully =] But nether less, the jazz concert gave me the chance to enjoy the music =) I enjoy everything: from the music down to teasing Jia xD

Wow. Xanga is just dead to me nowadays. However I came back to xanga because of Jessica xD Senior year has finally arrived and already my life is hectic--as usual. No surprises there. However I wonder a lot of things the past years as a high school student. Events happens here and there and leaves me pondering and sometimes confused. As the years passes by, one would think and ask himself or herself whether as a person, did he or she ever mature? Well...as for me questions like these would flow in and out of my mind but I never gave much in dept thought about it at all. I prefer to let events flow by until I decide to take matters into my own hands. In all my years of high school a lot of things happened--whether expectantly or surprisingly but that's life. But what I do know is that my friends and family are always my priority. However lately I've been thinking who exactly are my true friends and who exactly are the ones who prefer to be secluded from the "group". One minute we're friends, and the next thing I know..we're just strangers, exchanging 'hi' whenever meeting unexpectantly. I suppose in one point, friends are held dearly but before we know it, the distance between us seems to drift us apart further than ever. Even though we're drifted apart from one another, I still consider them as a friend; if they still consider me as theirs. Illusions and reality are two things that could be easily scoffed.

Good luck to everybody this year.